RedGage

I wanted to just do a post about how I feel during the holidays.  I love and hate the holidays at the same time.  I mean I love them because I am with a amazing guy in my life and he is awesome and I am so in love  with him.  I also love them cause I am thankful for my children that they are safe an sound.  I also hate in the way that I wish there was more that I could do for my kids and give them everything they could ever need.  I hope for them every day that they have and make good deisions.  Which I know without a doubt that they will, both of them are good girls and they want for nothing in this world.  Not because they are spoiled is becausse they are well loved.  But these are reasons I both love and hate christmas.  But also because I wish I had good memories.  See growing up was not good memories for me.  I do not remember alot of things but the things I do remember I wish I didnt. 

Have you ever had that where you wish you didnt remember some things and some things you wish you did.  I wish I remember more things when I was small with Diane.  But then with Edwin I wish I didnt remember as much as I do.  I dont know I think in each generation that kids grow.  It is different and everyone raises their kids differently thats why alot of people will look down their noses at the way the younger kids raise their kids.  Because then you didnt do the things you do now.  But I wanted to share some of my random thoughts with these holiday ones.  Hope all is well.